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Farizah or Fa or Izah or whichever you prefer
17,I have funny and awesome quirks I love to think of myself as a superhero coz superheroes get the chance to save the day I blog coz I want to have something that reminds me of everything that I did,yesterday today tomorrow I have a diary for that,but I can't put shitloads of pictures in it It'll grow fatttttttttt But it's still my best friend This blog's just for my own use Btw I hate spiders And I’ll let you in on a secret; I love myself |
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 Sunday, January 15, 2012 @ 12:12 AMAnyhoo. You know how it feels like when you worked hard to make a relationship the way you wanted it but it just won't go that way anyway? That's how I am feeling now. Then some people would say that it's just not meant to be. But how can it not? For me, this is one of the most important ones in my life, and it just had to be like that. It took me 18 years to finally know that it just can't be like that. Maybe there's some other more important factor(s) that I missed, that would make it better. And yet, here I am as stuck as ever.... I get jealous of others. When it seemed to be working so fine for them, like all the problems seem to melt with just a hug or conversation or kiss or words of kindness. There's no such thing like that for me. If there was, then it's initiated by me coz I'm the lovey dovey kind, and a day not doing that is a day wasted. So...how does this go for me? It seemed that the better (I say better, and not good/best) option would be to...just give and not receive. Yeah well, most people say that will give you happiness. It does really, I've felt it. But not with this. Coz it hurts just to think that it will not get any better. It really hurts. I am not trying to sound like some martyr or anything, but my life has never been like a normal teenager. Maybe it was because of the way I was brought up, maybe it was because of the way I think, or maybe it's just Fate. I believe it's fate that I was brought up to be who I am today and that this is exactly how I was supposed to think. Yepp, I do believe it. So maybe it is fate that I have never, ever been like any other typical teenager. I have never been in a relationship, and I never thought of going into one. I have never been in love with the opp sex (I thought I was). I did not go through the rebellious stage at the right stage. I did not go through the rebellious stage the right way. I never got the phone that I chose (or wanted, coz actually I just love my phone). There's a lot of things I never did. That may be due to the way I think, the way I was brought up. Or maybe, it's just Fate. Yepp, I believe it's Fate. So all I have to do not is just go through with this even if I know I will suffer a number of huge disappointments? Sure thing, I can do that. Question is, am I willing to do that? Labels: live life, love, Memories, you Up,up and away |
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Friday, February 11, 2011 @ 12:10 AM Hachiko
  Friendships and bonds that hope to last The trust he holds unwavering, gaze steadfast With love and faith you and I shall stay This will last, permanent, whatever may Labels: awwshucks, happiness, hmmm, huggs, live life, love, More than words, SMILE Up,up and away |
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Thursday, February 3, 2011 @ 7:24 PM Beautiful
 MasyaAllah. Labels: awwshucks, little little, love, More than words Up,up and away |
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Sunday, January 30, 2011 @ 1:56 PM American Idol
Just a few of the really nice ones.There are more,of course.  Chris Medina Bless you.  Travis Orlando I like this guy.Reminds me of Michael Buble. Nice voice.  She's good,and a good mama. Paris Tassin.  1,2,3 YES. Troubles melt like lemon drops huh?I like you. Labels: awwshucks, Flying, hahaha, live life, love Up,up and away |
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Monday, January 24, 2011 @ 9:40 PM Happy Birthday,Ibu.Love you!
 It's really hard to get people to ready themselves for the camera. I immensely enjoyed myself. 4D Log Ride. Sky Ride. Underwater World. The Luge. Cute Pink Dolphins! Again again again! Labels: Flying, happiness, love, SMILE Up,up and away |
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Friday, January 21, 2011 @ 10:17 PM OMG I SAW HIS FACE JUST NOW AND I WENT FFFFFFFFFFISHBALLS. Anw,hello again. Whoo there's a big plan going on tmr!Going to go here and there and everywhere and like finally??We haven't been out togetha for some time alr man!Ok,so good.I get to chill and relax=chillax hahah okok I'm quite happy :D Ok,chao. And yaya if you're reading this,I want more stories of atok. Labels: love, Memories, scent of the rain, you Up,up and away |
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Monday, January 10, 2011 @ 3:18 PM First day of school wasn't that bad.Hmm...maybe coz there are no lessons for me hahah. Ok,got to eat. Power up for training later on. Wheeeeee. I think the posts will look better if they were put this way. Yeah,looks fine. Round and round it goes out of place. The longer you look,the more she says "Fine." You say she needs a smile on her face. More needed is peace,so rare and divine. Nenek is sick. Labels: huggs, love, sick; laughter Up,up and away |
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Friday, December 17, 2010 @ 11:25 PM I want my shoulder to be the first cried on by my child when his/her heart gets hurt.I want my child to be very excited to add me on facebook as a friend.I want my child to bring me shopping,even if I still don't like shopping later on.I want my child to know that all I want are kisses on my forehead and cheeks when its my birthday.I want my child to hold my hand when we take a walk in the park.I want my child to know that I trust them to make good decisions for themselves. I want my child to kiss me on the cheek when he/she walks into me,even with his/her friends around.I want my child to have trust in me so deep,that he/she will not ask why I am gone when he/she wakes up in the morning.I want my child to be brave and face up to his/her mistakes when I demand for an explanation.I want my child to know that I trust in him/her.I want my child to be strong and independent should I not be able to give him strength anymore. I want my child to be happy and live a full life. Just like how I hope I will. Amin. Up,up and away |
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Sunday, November 14, 2010 @ 9:57 PM Hey there,Shah
 Hey Beautiful, I really treasure everything with you;this friendship,all the times we spent etc.You know I am going to be there for you,whenever wherever.I chose to hold myself back,and I really hope it's not a mistake,that it's going to be a blessing in disguise,inshaAllah.And I am sure that you moving on is not a mistake either (well,of course).It just shows that you deserve to.I can't guarantee that next year is going to be smooth-sailing,less strressful.Lol no one can guarantee that right?What's life without all these challenges,challenges that I believe He gives to make us value life more.And what doesn't kill you,makes you stronger.You're already a darn strong girl,you know that Shah?I think you have superpowers. But whatever it is,through the thick and thin,I'll be there with you.Maybe not physically (unless I can be in 2 places at once,which is cool!),but just know that you are always in my prayers.Sometimes,the whole world walks out on you when things turn out for the worst.Know that I am not like that,and I never will be like that.Thankfully,no one has ever walked out on me before.Maybe there is,but the fact that I can't remember that says something right?It's a waste of time to acknowledge. Being there for the people I love,it's the best thing that I can ever give.Of course,I am just a normal human being.With two hands and two feet.As normal as you can ever know.But I'll let you in on something.There is this magical factor in my life that makes it,somehow,extraordinary.The people in it.You H S D,everyone really.You guys really make my life wonderful.I love you. With this,I promise that I will lend you a shoulder to cry on,I'll lend you a listening ear whenever,I'll give you support,motivation encouragement,anything.All to make you feel better.Like I've said,I'll be the mascot for next year's J2s.I'll be a text away :D I love you <3 PS This applies to anyone,who thinks that I am worth their time. Labels: girlfriends, little little, love Up,up and away |
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Friday, September 10, 2010 @ 4:39 AM Him
Another year without that wise old smile I miss so much.Tomorrow is Friday.And if it were any other Friday,he'd be cycling to our house after maghrib.He'd lock that bike,which currently is locked outside,at that pipe.We'd all be dreading the long hour(s) where we would ngaji.But alhamdulillah,at least I got something out of those dreaded hours.Not something,everything.After which is makan time,where there'll either be tulang or mee goreng mama.Yummm.Then he will smoke his pipe(?)(that's what they call it). Lol at times I forgot that he's not home.Not anymore.But then I can't keep on forgetting,can I?It does not feel great. Hmm...he had a good long life. His watch is still with me. And it has no battery.Just this lil thingy that keeps that watch alive.I examined it closely,and I realised it's like a beating lil heart.Always pumping to keep the watch alive,as long as I use it (coz movement generates energy). Well,that's what it is,isn't it? The memory of him is still kept vivid and clear,I can even smell that oh-so-familiar tobacco smell. It's not really a memory. Just like the watch's, his heart is still beating as long as ours are. Labels: love, Memories;them;live life Up,up and away |
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Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 1:33 PM Memory Lane
    Just thought I'd show some oldies photo.Lazy to crop some though. Labels: love Up,up and away |
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