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Farizah or Fa or Izah or whichever you prefer
17,I have funny and awesome quirks
I love to think of myself as a superhero
coz superheroes get the chance to save the day
I blog coz I want to have something that reminds me of everything that I did,yesterday today tomorrow
I have a diary for that,but I can't put shitloads of pictures in it
It'll grow fatttttttttt
But it's still my best friend
This blog's just for my own use
Btw
I hate spiders
And I’ll let you in on a secret;
I love myself


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Ayeshah stated this on her blog post.I don't know if I'm allowed to do this (haha can k shah),but here goes.

"The world has much to offer you Fa, and I know that you are ready to take on everything thrown at you and rise above everyone else.God definitely has great plans for a great girl like you :)"

I once had a dream that I flew.Like,seriously.In the dream,I was standing on a ledge of a tall building,looking down.I felt excited,not scared.Like I knew what I was doing,I jumped.I was close to the ground,but somehow I knew that I was not going to touch it.Suddenly,I soared upwards.Higher and higher I went.I felt like I knew what I was doing.I flew over tall buildings,into the clouds,looked at people,each too busily engaged within their own bubbles to realise I was watching them.I flew over a lot of other things,but the best part was the sea.It seemed like it was never going to end.But sadly,dreams don't last forever.And I woke up.

The dream seemed short,but it felt like an eternity.Exhilarating(?),exciting.

Whoo best feeling ever.I told Ibu,and she was worried.She,along with a few others,thought I was feeling suicidal.Goodness gracious,never in my life have I ever thought of ending it all just like that.It's Forbidden,and I'd never do that.

But Abah,on the other hand,said this.

Atok once said,that if ever we dreamt that we were flying,
we are destined for great things. Up,up and away

So,here goes.
My Resolutions.

1) Don't give my parents a hard time.
They deserve a break.But it's not me that's doin' all the crappin'.I've been sucking up the crap.Trust me,cleanin' up after people ain't cool.Especially when I know that if I don't,hell's gonna be let loose.Hmm...b' that's what I gotta do to keep 'em the peace they earn,ey gurlie?Aaah I know that,but imma do it smart'r this time 'round.Keep it goin',smiley :D *mahaha i'm trying a different accent*

2) Study harder than ever.
Meet the goal I've set for myself.I don't want to disappoint myself again.My results were sucky.Maybe coz,when the going gets tough,I let my tough go?Yeah,that's true to some extent.Plus,my emotions were on a wild ride.Up down and all around.Get a grip,eh fa,and don't give up.InshaAllah,you'll do way better.Mahaha I have to :D

3) Save up,save up,save up for the storm that's sure to come.
Like they always say,save up before the Great Singapore Sale.AHAHAHA kiddin',I hate shopping,but bargains don't come if you don't go searchin'.Unless you're willing to pay full price for everything,like some rich kid.

4) Be a better Muslimah,a better Caliph.
For this,I know what I want to do.

5) Give myself an easier time.
Don't be so tough on myself.I have duty to my parents,my family.But most importantly of all,I forgot the duty I've got to myself this year (2010).I have to remember this,and carry it out.I'm not putting myself first,but I'm not letting others step all over me either.I love myself,my very being and existence is all thanks to Him.So,appreciation shall be the first step.
Then,I'll have to be gentle with myself.

6) Go with the flow.
I have a general idea of what I want,though this keeps changing.But that's the point,things never stay the way they are for a long time.Change is inevitable.I have to adapt to it.Make smart choices,choose the right path.If not,just make mistakes and learn from them.Most importantly,I have to make my own mistakes.

I have faith in myself,that I'll make the right choices,learn from my mistakes,and I'll go far in life.

It will suffice to start with just that. Up,up and away

Woohoo 2010 is ending soon.And good riddance.
It's like a rojak year,high for a day or two and way,way down after.
There's a lot that I want to forget,and even less that I want to remember.Hmm..if given the choice,I'd restart this whole year over again.Maybe,in a way,retaining gives me chance?Haha I really need this.

Thank goodness there's a lot who are willing to stand behind me all the way through.From then till now.This is blind of me,but at times I was oblivious to this wonderful fact.Haha shame on me.But now,at least I know that I am not alone.

Haha I was never alone,coz He's always there,giving me the guidance that I need so much.

Either way,to both the good and the bad,I have only one thing to say.
Alhamdulillah.

That's it,I am not going any further than this.I'm supposed to post tmr instead.New year mah.But heck,I don't want to go all boring and plain.No no no.

Anyhoo,an advanced bye bye to 2010.
See you never,sucka.

Haha kidding,it's been a ride.But I never want to repeat this whole year again.Ever.
How ironic.
Fa,you're contradicting yourself.

Maybe I'll post my resolution.
Or maybe not.

Aaah you're fickle today,aren't cha? Up,up and away

Poor Paris,people will think she's dumber now.


"Dennis Quaid wants coffee!"


Ellen never gets scared.


Mahahahaha,oh ellen.


Ahahahahaha I love ellen.


Hahah ellen got her sweet revenge on Steve Carrell. :D Up,up and away

True,that.

Imma take a shower then
Peace. Up,up and away

And if you ask me to
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad

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NUR FARIZAH

Farizah Jelas
Nur Cahaya

N Naif
U Untung
R Ramah

F Fleksibel
A Amanah
R Realistik
I Ikhlas
Z Zingy
A Alim
H Harum

Hmm...I got a book,but my name Farizah isn't there.So what better place to search for the meaning of my name than on the internet?I would ask Atok,but that is no longer the option for anything.Like I said many times before,I wished I was older and mature in thinking back then.So many chances wasted.

Anw,I found that there are a couple of meanings to my name.
First,Farizah means Arc.
I have no idea what this means.
Another one is the one above,Jelas.It means clear.This makes much more sense.But clear can be other people getting what I mean easily.Or that I am so transparent I am an open book?No,you can't read me unless you know me VERY WELL.Whatever it means,I hope it's good for me.

But this one,one that Atok said back then to Ibu,he said something like 'bawah tanah',which means 'under the ground'.Meh see the question marks on my face.Maybe I get it,maybe I don't.Asking other people just gives me an idea what Atok meant.But the ideas given are not clear,and it's clear that only he can give me the right one.

Only Atok.
Coz he gave me my name. Up,up and away

Ahh fishballs. Up,up and away

Ah a little too early to say I know what I want now.I'll take a minute or twooooooo.
No wait,later lah later.

Hahah I'm feeling deep now,coz I just had a dream.
Not too sure if it's a nice dream. Up,up and away

Thanks shah,the White is pretty and flowy :D


And Kak,thanks for Charco's!

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Shah intro-ed me to this song!

I think I wanna marry you! Up,up and away

Hee the scene is sooo nice.And my hand,the one you can't see is holding my tudung down.If not can see my badan.


This girl veeeery pretty,beautiful.
Saaaaaaaaaaaayang Inaku. Up,up and away

The past few days have been epicly awesome.
Have no idea why,but yeah that's how I feel.
Hope this goes on and on and on (and on and on...)

Anws,it's alr the 20th.Oooh time flies so fast.Mehehe like I said (plus everyone else),time waits for no one.If it does,I wouldn't be a JC student (not yet anw).

Whooo I shall blog proper soon.What am I going to think of myself if I see this in ten years time?

"Lol I am so me."

Yeah,that's right. Up,up and away

One of the best. Up,up and away

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Doop dee doo. Up,up and away

I want my hug to be the first thing my child yearns for when he/she gets hurt,falls down scraped his/her knee.I want my voice to be the first thing that my child wants to hear when he/she wakes up in the morning.I want my hands to be the ones making my child's breakfast.I will be the first person my child shows his/her report book to,regardless of the grades he/she got.I want my child to believe me when I say everything's going to be alright,even when things go topsy turvy.I want my child to hold my hand when I say that the time ahead will be hard for us,and see his/her eyes look into mine when I say 'I love you.'

I want my shoulder to be the first cried on by my child when his/her heart gets hurt.I want my child to be very excited to add me on facebook as a friend.I want my child to bring me shopping,even if I still don't like shopping later on.I want my child to know that all I want are kisses on my forehead and cheeks when its my birthday.I want my child to hold my hand when we take a walk in the park.I want my child to know that I trust them to make good decisions for themselves.

I want my child to kiss me on the cheek when he/she walks into me,even with his/her friends around.I want my child to have trust in me so deep,that he/she will not ask why I am gone when he/she wakes up in the morning.I want my child to be brave and face up to his/her mistakes when I demand for an explanation.I want my child to know that I trust in him/her.I want my child to be strong and independent should I not be able to give him strength anymore.

I want my child to be happy and live a full life.
Just like how I hope I will.
Amin.

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Wow this is a nice song.
I like :D Up,up and away

Haha true that,sucka.

Cheater. Up,up and away

Life's been going smooth,the only thing that ain't going cool is getting permissions to get out and hang upside down!Hmm...yeah that's the most difficult thing everrrrrrr grrrrrrrr.But somehow I just managed to sneak my way through?Haha don't underestimate me,I got brains k.

You can choose what you want to remember right?Ok,that's quite ridiculous,coz no matter how hard you try it'll always make its way back to haunt you haha sucka.But you can choose to feel nothing out of it.Like not let it affect you emotionally.It's hard,but manageable.But it's long since gone when

Hmm..why am I saying this?I am saying this coz the time may come when I need to do this.Sigh never thought it'd come,but how foolish of me of course it'll come.It's just a matter of when.

So wait for it,and let it slide.
Yepp,let it slide.

Eh wait,girl.What you talking about?
Hahah this will never affect me :D Up,up and away

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I am not asking for any nice words of thanks or praises or anything of the sort.
Just appreciate everything that I do.
I wasn't seeking for your approval or commendation anyway.

And to think that I actually listened and didn't retaliate. Up,up and away

Aah today is too much of a plain day for a plain jane.
Hmm I'm thinking of what to get during this holiday,like shop.But the word shop itself gives me the heevy jeevies.And here it comes...my brain is flooding me with all the annoying images of crowds in the malls.Meh.Maybe online shopping will do the trick.Oh wait,I have to use NETs or credit.Ibu will kill me if I ask.I don't like wasting money,but really I feel like splurging.No,the only way is to go out to certain places after surveying online.
Oh noooooo I have to go out.

I love simplicity,but prints of some pretty stuffs attract me.

This skirt is not simple,but it's pretty coz of the clever blend of colours.


Same goes for this dress.


This tunic is nice and romantic.I like the detail,very intricate yet simple.


This top has a nice edge to it.I like it.


Not simple,but pretty pretty all the same.

These two things below have the same thing in common- the warm colour.



They're both pretty.


I fell in love with this trench coat.Why?Yeah coz its white!But it's impractical to be walking out in this on the streets of the little red dot just above the equator.I may as well be in a walking sauna.


These ankle boots are real pretty.But too bad,if I were to put it on nobody'd know they're boots :/


These brogues are pretty too.


This duffel is nice!I like the colour.Hmm...would it look better in white?Nyeh,it should stay this colour.

Haha I think something good came out of looking through these things.I know my taste and style better now.I even surprised myself,coz I didn't know I like things that I thought I wouldn't like.They're really pretty.

Warm and simple but detailed.

But I still hate shopping,okay?

Ahahahaha

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You know,if you think about it,this is true to kinda a large extent.It's a really tiring thing but it lets you have some laughs along the way,whatever the end,which I believe will be a happy one.I sometimes think that maybe my way of thinking,in one way or another,is unacceptable coz it's a little too optimistic at times?Well,I can hope.But some people said it's not realistic.Lol to hell with their views.It's not what they said,it's the way they said it.It makes me want to bitchslap them.
Oh wells,I guess I can just say leave me and my thoughts be,I ain't hurtin' nobody.

I have nothing much to do during the holidays.Honestly,I'd rather stay at home.I am more of an introvert on certain days,but on other days I just want to go out and jeng jeng jeng.Ever since we came back,there are a loooot of stuffs to settle.Sickening,the chores just keep piling up.But I kinda enjoy doing them,gives me some peace away from the buzzing of the busy bee.Ironic huh?Mmhmm.

Maybe coz of this,Ibu's been a bit more generous than usual.But I have a feeling that she's sad for me.Coz I am retaining and she thinks that I am an emotional wreck etc.But truthfully,I am not.I accepted it.And I won't ever waste it.

Hmm..accepting has been one of the most toughest thing to do.Accepting,understanding.Yeah,they are tough.But I managed thus far and who says I am about to fail now.Nah,little or big things come by to serve their purpose as part and parcel of life.These obstacles,no matter how petty,test us.Shaking our faith in ourselves,our principles,our values,our virtues.I am not one to lose any of those in any situation.I stick by them.That's what makes me who I am today.I won't let anyone shake my core of emotions and senses.Hmm..thinking about certain instances,I almost bend over to the circumstance.But at the last nanosecond,my brain goes pop.My brain.Maybe my head is the one that governs my decisions.Of course,my heart contributes in some way.Come to think of it,my heart does have its say in a lot of things.Yeah,maybe that's the reason why.You let your head take control,your heart skips a beat.You let your heart take center stage,your conscience just roars.

Hmm...I had no idea what I was going to talk about before starting to type.The words just flows out of my fingertips onto the keyboard.And it kinda flows?No?Haha I'll have to read it again.

But I think the essence of this post is that you must be like the weed.
Always bending towards the direction where the wind blows.
Unlike the oak,which fights the flow and loses in the end as it falls to the ground. Up,up and away

And so here we are,Genting Highlands :D


From Tok Haji's house.He's so trusting and generous.He actually gave us the key to his vacation house in Melaka just so it'd be less complicated for us :D




Ok,intro to one of my fave rides- Space Shot!!See that?Thrilling I like :D Best part was going up and taking in the breathtaking view of nature.And of course,the going down part was aweee-shummmmm.


Not to forget,the Corkscrew!Gives you the adrenaline rush :D


The higher we went,the more excited I felt.The view's very picturesque right?Hmm..imagine sky diving here.Whoooooooooooooooooo




And maybe a bit of camwhoring will do.


Oh and this 'man' looks real freaky I tell you.This is the ride within the plaza itself,and its such a boreeeeee.




Look at the view.Sighhhhhh I didn't want to go homeeee hahah

Ok,down here you'll see First World Hotel getting obscured by the cold :D















That small,brave girl actually sat with me up front on the Corkscrew :D





1,2,3 JUMP!Haha wish I could!






There's a lot of these kinds but filter filter filter!I'd love to put all but my my the work nehhh I very lazy so hahahaha ok,don't you think I'm merepeking now?Hah nolah I just drank coffee!




And mooooore shots.trust me there's more where those came from :D



Some me shots :D


I wanted to stand in the lift but I couldn't.I hate lifts but I felt braver coz there was Khali in it with me hahah.









Moving through the corridor with 'style'. :D




Some jump shots :D






The journey downnnn.


Bye,GH.Till next time :D

Needless to say,I had a great time.

Labels: Flying, live life, Memories, satisfaction

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