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Farizah or Fa or Izah or whichever you prefer
17,I have funny and awesome quirks
I love to think of myself as a superhero
coz superheroes get the chance to save the day
I blog coz I want to have something that reminds me of everything that I did,yesterday today tomorrow
I have a diary for that,but I can't put shitloads of pictures in it
It'll grow fatttttttttt
But it's still my best friend
This blog's just for my own use
Btw
I hate spiders
And I’ll let you in on a secret;
I love myself


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A class of his own. Up,up and away

Heyho.
Cute aren't they?

Doodoodoo.

I am tired.

"I got higher than him!He got 35,I got 36!"
"Hahah YAY for ya!"
"But it's out of hundred ahh.."
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!" Up,up and away

A definite must-watch. Up,up and away

It is now 0018 hours.And I still can't sleep.So,I am just going around the thingy called the web.Play games,quit.Search random videos,quit.Back to games,and so on.So,yeah,I am staring at the screen most of the time.

I love the colourful lights that Abah fixed at the window.I hope he can get off work on Raya.Get a car too.I love my new baju raya.I am happy with the fact that we have all the things that we want on the table,in the kitchen,in my closet,in the shoe box.I especially want to see Adila happy.But I watched the news.Where in certain unfortunate countries,they are given a plate of porridge.PER FAMILY.And here we are wondering what to do with the leftover food.Astaghfirullah halazim.I am willing to sacrifice Adila's happiness to give them at least half-full stomachs.But then again,can I bear to take it away from my little sister?That'd be unfair to her.Dilemma.

I really am selfish. Up,up and away

This is Tam.
She's a cool cat.
I try not to get attached to her.
Oh well,needless to say
I failed. Up,up and away

I just realise.
I love to watch people enjoying themselves,even people I do not know,
with family,friends.
I like it when they smile,laugh.
They make me smile.

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Hahah Bai's post reminded me of the awesome awesome story called 3 Idiots.
Well,I say it certainly did touch my heart.
Friendship,trust,belief.
They never do part from one another. Up,up and away

I realised something. What's the point of stressing yourself up when you know it's just a mistake?Lately, I have been setting up expectations of myself,some of which I consciously know will not be achieved.Being optimistic is one thing,realistic another.I am a highly optimistic person,trust me.And that may be the cause of some pressing issues.I guess that caused me to receive questions for Dr Tan.Optimism at the expense of my health is totally not positive.But optimism for their sake,now that's worthwhile.Isn't it?

Maybe I now need to think of myself.
Just myself.
Ish,that's selfish.

Hmm...now I am just in deep thought. Up,up and away

Took out my Chem Bonding notes and my half-done mindmap.
Drew an oval.
Threw away my pencil,then crushed the mindmap and threw it into a corner.
Chucked away my Chem stuffs.

Took out Math Applications of Differentiation and foolscap pad.
Stared and stared (and stared).
Chucked it into the corner too.

Took out Bio DNA and Genomics.
Stared and stared (and stared).
Threw that aside too.

Stared at Geog notes.
No,I don't want to add another thing to 'the corner'.

Stared at this wretched thingy.

Maybe I should chuck it into 'the corner' someday too.

Aaaah so much chucking goin' on.

I hate the near-the-exams period.
That's where all the 'kick' comes in. Up,up and away

I remember the story: John Blanchard stood up from the bench, straightened his Army uniform, and studied the crowd of people making their way through Grand Central Station. He looked for the girl whose heart he knew, but whose face he didn't, the girl with the rose. His interest in her had begun thirteen months before in a Florida library. Taking a book off the shelf he found himself intrigued, not with the words of the book, but with the notes penciled in the margin. The soft handwriting reflected a thoughtful soul and insightful mind.

In the front of the book, he discovered the previous owner's name, Miss Holly Maynell. With time and effort he located her address. She lived in New York City. He wrote her a letter introducing himself and inviting her to correspond.
The next day he was shipped overseas for service in World War II. During the next year and one month, the two grew to know each other through the mail. Each letter was a seed falling on a fertile heart. A romance was budding. Blanchard requested a photograph, but she refused. She felt that if he really cared, it wouldn't matter what she looked like
When the day finally came for him to return from Europe, they scheduled their first meeting - 7.00 p.m. at the Grand Central Station in New York.

"You'll recognize me," she wrote, "by the red rose I'll be wearing on my lapel." So at 7.00 p.m. he was in the station looking for a girl whose heart he loved, but whose face he'd never seen. I'll let Mr. Blanchard tell you what happened:

A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. Her blonde hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears; her eyes were blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in her pale green suit she was like springtime come alive. I started toward her, entirely forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a rose. As I moved, a small provocative smile curved her lips. "Going my way, sailor?" she murmured.

Almost uncontrollably, I made one step closer to her, and then I saw Holly Maynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl. A woman well past 40, she had graying hair tucked under a worn hat. She was more than plump, her thick-ankled feet thrust into low-heeled shoes. The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away. I felt as though I was split in two, so keen was my desire to follow her, and yet so deep was my longing for the woman whose spirit had truly companioned me and upheld my own.

And there she stood. Her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible, her gray eyes had a warm and kindly twinkle. I did not hesitate. My fingers gripped the small worn blue leather copy of the book that was to identify me to her.

This would not be love, but it would be something precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for which I had been and must ever by grateful. I squared my shoulders and saluted and held out the book to the woman, even though while I spoke I felt choked by the bitterness of my disappointment. "I'm Lieutenant John Blanchard, and you must be Miss Maynell. I am so glad you could meet me; may I take you to dinner?" The woman's face broadened into a tolerant smile. "I don't know what this is about, son," she answered, "but the young lady in the green suit who just went by, she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And she said if you were to ask me out to dinner, I should tell you that she is waiting for you in the big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of test!" Up,up and away

Hmm...I feel horrible.


I am now waiting for Kenet. Up,up and away

"You're confusing me!You said you were right,but Mdm S says mine is right!"
"NO Really!I am right!Oh wait...." *looks at the board* "Heheh sorryyyyyy.."
"OMG I tell you,you call yourself my tutor!But you failed to teach me properly!"
"Hahahah sorry lahhhh.."
"I trust you eh then ahh I thought you were right then she told me a different story.If I fail ahh,I am going to strangle you!"
"Oh no,then I sure die one!"
"OMG heartless!You want me to fail???"
"Well....not that I want,but you yourself should know..." *gives an evil face*
"WTS fine.Then sadly,you shall live.."
"HAHAHAHAHAH!"

Hmm...had a great day today.
With A and M and G and S and A and A and J oh well,basically I had a great day.
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I just don't get some people.The way they think,they way they view things of (apparent) concern,the way they behave.I am not talking about anyone; I am merely stating the somewhat habitual thoughts of people,which somehow manage to make their way into my trail of thoughts.How disturbing,or not.In a way,they allow me to analyse issues,and reflect on a very important topic in my life: Farizah.One of the best ways to learn is to learn from mistakes.Mistakes which may be your own, or of others that you pick up along the way.These mistakes will certainly make you ask yourself a question or two.How did this happen?Did I make the choice that led to this?Why did she undertake the path she knows full well is not meant for her?Aren't the signs clear enough? (Ok this is more than one or two) Maybe not to the naked eye,but to the eye that blinks within the deepest depths of the heart.Your heart,my heart.Well,if it's in your heart,the mega surfer in your brain will capture the image and you,with the gift of aql,will generate the thousand words that come with every picture.Words brings about a deeper idea than what is seen on the surface.Just ask Shakespeare.He can tell you,or even write you a poem that will be understood but at the expense of your sanity.Of course,I am only exaggerating.I do not have Shakespeare's ingenuity,or Edison's determination.Nor do I have Rasulullah's (p.b.u.h) courage to face hardship.Like the honourable Fa Zhou (Mulan) once said, "The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all."

Do you get my point of saying all this?If not then it's alright,this blog is meant for my own personal reading and reminder anw.Most of the messages that you see here are for me.

May Allah bless us in this Holy month of Ramadhan.
InsyaAllah
Amin

Whilst reading the Holy Book,I heard echoes of you teaching me the difference between Izhar and Ikhfa.

It's just my imagination,born by memories. Up,up and away

She's amazing.
Check her out on YouTube. Up,up and away

That numbed that unpleasant feeling.
At least for a lil' while. Up,up and away

Something to cheer you up with,no? Up,up and away

WAH I am busier than a bee.
Weird,that coming out of me.
What a to-do.....or shall we make that
TO-DOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay behind on work,and that coming out of me is.....
NOT weird.

Hahahaah Imminaweirdmoooooooodtdayanybdymindtellinmescrewit?

Hahah neh,Im cool.
Not stressed.Yet.
But I will,which is normal.

I love this time of the year :D Up,up and away

The past two years have been really...overwhelming,in a word.
Again,I have to reiterate,I am very, very grateful for being given a day after another to appreciate oxygen.
The holy month of Ramadhan has arrived,to bless us yet again.
I am speechless.There are just too many things to say.

Anw,
Happy Fasting to all Muslims.
Make the most of Ramadhan.
This will be the best time for you and me to reflect on whatever that we have done.
Abstain from any wrongdoing,not only during this month,but also the time beyond.
May Allah Bless you with a thousand Blessings.


Tidak banyak yang ku pinta

Ku hanya mengharapkan Ramadhan
kali ini penuh makna

اهلا و سهلا يا رمضان Up,up and away

Kan ku tunggu kehadiranmu yang penuh Nikmat Up,up and away

Had fun yesterday at madrasah.Adibah was very (VERY) high hahaah.

Anw,Ayeshah is now in London.I have yet to check the time difference.

Anw,here are some pics from yesterday :D
OMG I lost the order of the photos,but the ones related to class shud be at the top,then the people,then me hahah.Dont know what I was doing.Good thing I didnt delete of those piccahs!
















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What makes you different,
makes you beautiful. Up,up and away

I had loads of fun.
But it has taken a toll on my health,sadly,considering that I kept sleeping late everyday just to complete work everyday.I ain't complainin',just saying.Coz I know I am not the only one suffering from overloaded school work.
I tear everytime I talk,and when I stopped halfway some ppl thought that I was being rude coz....I don't know what they're thinking lahh.So...I hope sucking on strepsils will help,even if it's just by a smidge.

NO school on monday and tuesday.
Alhamdulillah.
Extra sleeping time.

"The most wasted day is that in which we have not laughed." - Chamfort

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I watch videos and episodes on youtube when I'm stressed.
Funny ones especially coz they make me laugh.
One of the best series to me is the Wizards of Waverly Place.
Don't ask me why,I just love them.
Oh and I love David Henrie too.

I find that in this episode,Justin and Zeke is sooooo cute.
Especially Justin.

"That's the sound I make when I go potty."

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Wokees!
I am tired,but I think this deserves mention.

Ayeshah's going off to Cambridge,London for her Lit stuffs.
For 14 days.
So loooong :(
Hah so am just back from her hse,helped her pack her barang-barang.Lol if they said that anth above 20kg is chargeable,then can't they introduce a luggage bag that's like....lighter or something?Coz judging by the looks of it,it's a little over 20kg?Ayeshah,tell me k.
Basically,today had lessons,celebrations,remedial(IKR) then lunch with Hanis Zi Ayeshah (she came later though)and Huda too (heh just got to know her,very nice person ,oh and i love her hair colour!).Went to Shah's hse after,and whee the fun begins.
And there's this bed of hers,that's like....alive?Coz everytime I sit on it,it makes me damn sleepy.Feels good,but well it's hard to keep my eyes open HAHAHAH.I think those who know will agree.Totally.
Anw,Shah's going off this sunday at 0645 hrs.As in I'll meet her at 0645.Madrasah after,but I'll see if I'm going,but then we all alr pakat to wear red and white.Hmmm....
Anw,Shah make sure you have Skype tau!Then can talk to ya!
And one thing's absolutely certain.

I am going to miss you sooooo much. Up,up and away

I lost my head.
And there's lovely Yaya.

Tomorrow is going to be National Day celebration,
and I think I'm kinda looking forward to it.

It's been like packed days this whole month (or rather the last month) and I realise that time has been flying really fast.It's like,before I know it,morning has arrived.
It's like time doesn't want to wait for me.But well,it doesnt wait for anyone.

Finally,I'll get to have a break with some dearies tmr.Like at long last.
Sigh.
I just miss loads of ppl now.

A lot. Up,up and away

I want to watch Sesame Street.And eat this.

Anw
Is it really that hard to just do something so simple?
Something that even I can do in one day?
I mean,come on.The others would agree.That is saying something.
But you.....are a different story.
A whole new dimension.
It's like you're a......an air-headed heiress who resides in a revolting body of a man.
You are as dumb as you look then.
Sorry,but you asked for it.

Anw,WR is torture.And so is EoM.Nothing seems to be good!GAH.
But everything else is working well for me,at least.
Teachers are now becoming a little.....uptight?Like they weren't before,but still.That's a good sign,that they want us to do well.I mean,that's why they become teachers right?Coz they want to pass on the knowledge etc.But then again,does this apply to all?HEHE

Friday is celebrations.Red and white.I don't have any white pants,coz I know full well that they'll come back grey.I love white,but sitting down on white pants is very paranoi-ing.Ibu bought a pair for me anw,thanks Ibu :D

Oh and Hanisah has a buddy from Brunei,Azida.My plan was to scare her off,but well,its not nice to do that.I alr made friends with her.Nice girl :D

Now shall be.......

SLEEP. Up,up and away

I have been collecting currencies passionately since I was young.Since primary school.I have American,Hong Kong,China,Indo,Australia,Malaysia,Brunei,India,you name it.I have everything.Almost everything.

I even collect Singapore's.The really old ones,you know?
The ones with a bird,a ship,orchid.
I have been looking for the banana money.
And you know the really old $2 note?The one which is orange in colour?Yeah,I have that.
And the old $20 note,the brown one.
The many different kinds of $5 note.And the old one that's less green,yeah I have that too.
Not to mention the many many kinds of $1 note that's from like what,my Atok's generation?Yeah,pretty notes.
Don't forget the $5 and $10 notes that you can still see being used in supermarkets?The paper ones,not the plastic.Uhuh,I won't want to lose that.
I even collect the new notes,the plastic ones,just in case.
I have the new Singapore-Brunei (well not really new)$20 note.Very nice note there.

Let's just say there are quite a number of Singapore currency/notes there.I never,I repeat,NEVER had any intention to use them,even though I can,but I chose not to.I'd go through them and in a way I learn history too.They'r like very dear to me,coz I starve myself (not really lahh,just tahan) to obtain some of the notes,coz they're still of value you know.And imagine I started doing that when I was younger.

Just imagine almost ALL of them gone.

I am heart-broken.

And I was a happy kid a few moments ago. Up,up and away

Presenting.......

GEORGE SAMPSON!!
Watch in order alright.


Look at Simon from start till end.







RESULTS

AWESOME RIGHT! Up,up and away

Ooooooh I like this.

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My day would suck without this!
Cool or what!

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Womanizer much!

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WOW.

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I just don't know who you are.

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I love this. Up,up and away

I like this better.

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Planet earth turns slowly.

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What did she say????



Wow her voice is....:D Up,up and away

This is a beautiful fairytale.

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Oh and I'll show you one of the best dancers I've ever seen.
Later,not yet.
Not this,maybe at the end.



Baby,baby,baby this is aweshum! Up,up and away

She would tear you apart,
told you from the start,
told you from the start.

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I am like looking at songs to relax a little.
Found one,awesome.I may put more.Really awesome covers.

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Is it that hard to just listen and not fight back?I really don't know what else to do with you,do you know that?It's not that I gave up,coz I don't want to.I kept quiet,coz I don't want to argue with you.
What more do you want,honestly?She got you what you wanted right?Everything.almost.I don't get whatever I wanted,to tell you the truth.I wondered why you get more than me.Childish,immature thoughts,I know.I can't help it,somehow.But the more I think of it,the more I understand.
She knows that I am able to think rationally,and sensibly as to why that is so.I am able to,that's why I am okay with it.She is sincere in what she's doing,and I can see that.She lets you go out,for whatever reasons whilst I am not able to,whatever my reasons.See the fairness in that?No?Anw,I just feel that she should do what she is doing.Yet,no fruit is beared.Only weeds that took advantage of the soil.I can't see why that is so,truthfully.
I just can't.

That's why,I shall not do what you did.
I never will. Up,up and away

For you,
if you think this is for you. Up,up and away

I wont say I didnt expect that.
There was nothing good discussed abt me during parent-teacher meeting.
Except "She was very good earlier in the year."
Keyword: was
But it was funny lahh,coz it's like a parent-teacher-student conference.Coz well,I as talking to Ms L most of the time.HAHAHAHAH.Lucky Ibu's cool abt it :D

On a sadder note,I miss my friends terribly. Up,up and away