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Farizah or Fa or Izah or whichever you prefer
17,I have funny and awesome quirks I love to think of myself as a superhero coz superheroes get the chance to save the day I blog coz I want to have something that reminds me of everything that I did,yesterday today tomorrow I have a diary for that,but I can't put shitloads of pictures in it It'll grow fatttttttttt But it's still my best friend This blog's just for my own use Btw I hate spiders And I’ll let you in on a secret; I love myself |
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 Sunday, March 11, 2012 @ 11:28 PMI never liked my birthday like publicised. Coz I find that it makes people's life harder. Like they feel obliged to do something for me, get something for me etc. Thing is, if they were my close friends and family I wouldn't mind at all. I would just let them coz it makes them happy. But if they did it coz....they felt like they needed to do it then....what's the point? The reason goes deeper but it's hard to understand. Coz nobody ever did. Anyhoo, back to the birthday(s). 9th of March I actually forgot that it's my birthday. See. This is how unimportant my birthday is in my life. It's important in a way, but in another way it's not. Anyhoo, I forgot about it. When previous days before that I had this deep reflection on life. Of how it's so temporary. Stuffs like that. Deep stuffs, I tell you. & Dak and dhacha and jaga celebrated. I was not a good 'victim'. Really I feel so sorry for them but yeah. My view of birthdays is different from theirs soooo...yeah. 10th March I was hoping for a get together with just my family. But it didn't happen. Coz ppl were missing. Sigh so I went out to look for a birthday present for someone. And then to Nenek's. Celebrated and stuff like that. But that was not what I was hoping for. I am very thankful for them, really. Coz my cousins whipped up this while muffin-cake idea. Even though it did not turn out the way they planned, it was still a very meaningful gesture to me. Love em to bits. And I waited. 11th March Finally, it happened. Almost all of my dad's siblings were at Nenek's. Almost all my cousins were there. We talked, ate, lepak-ed (I slept and almost missed Asar) and just crapped. We prayed together. It felt...so good. I can't explain it. But that was how I remembered gatherings at Neneks to be when I was younger. Everyone together. Not a care for the outside world. Just...us. 2 days after my birthday, I got my wish. See, birthdays aren't important to me. I don't need people to appreciate the fact that I'm alive and successfully made through another year. It's enough that I get to appreciate me breathing, me talking, me loving and caring for my family. It's more than enough. Nothing can ever give me that feeling except for this. You may not get it. But that's enough. 11th March is not even my birthday, but my wish came true today. :D |
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