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Farizah or Fa or Izah or whichever you prefer
17,I have funny and awesome quirks I love to think of myself as a superhero coz superheroes get the chance to save the day I blog coz I want to have something that reminds me of everything that I did,yesterday today tomorrow I have a diary for that,but I can't put shitloads of pictures in it It'll grow fatttttttttt But it's still my best friend This blog's just for my own use Btw I hate spiders And I’ll let you in on a secret; I love myself |
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 Saturday, February 4, 2012 @ 11:33 AMThere's no point of being envious of other people. Especially not when I feel like I need to change myself. Me, me, me. It sucks when things happen and you're forced to think that well, it's you, you and you. Why does it always happen like that? Really, what I said (or yelled, rather) were true to a very large extent. Really true. But when things are said, it requires the appropriate words and the willing ears to listen. When that happened, it didn't have either. So, when there are 2 sides to a story, why is mine always under scrutiny? I did say that I appreciate everything that you're doing for me. I truly believe that. I mean, why do you think I sacrificed my precious time to help ease your burden? Honestly, if I didn't give a tuck, I would be home by 10 and slept by 1030. And I am capable of doing that, frankly speaking. I do all that, coz I care. Coz I appreciate all that you've done for us. Coz I know that there is no other way for me to repay back all that you've done for me. But I try, I still try even thought I know that it is not enough. True, when you said that I retained and I didn't study enough. True, when you said that I didn't help enough around the house. True, when you said that it is mostly you who did anything. True, when you said that I was a difficult kid back then. And now what are you saying? True, I did not appreciate all the nights you stayed up for me when I fell sick? True, I did nothing to help you? True, I put myself above all others? True, I don't give a damn about what happened in the house? Yeah well, that's all you could ever think. Coz nothing can ever be enough for you. I understand, I really do, about the fact that you weren't as privileged as us, that you never got enough time for yourself. I do understand as much. So much so that I am willing to sacrifice anything for you. But sacrifice comes at a price, and unfortunately, my temper got the better of me. I am patient (I think), but when wild accusations are thrown at me, that's over the line. Way over the line. They are not true. So not true. You were hurt, by the words that I throw at you. You were hurt, by the fact that apparently I do not give a damn. You were hurt, by the fact that I actually have the heart to shout back at you. You were hurt, by the fact that what I am saying were right. But did you notice, that it hurts me too? It hurts, when you slash the words at me like they were knives. It hurts, when you said I didn't care at all. It hurts, when I had to raise my voice to make myself heard. It hurts, so darn much. Right now, I do not have the time for much. Only studies, studies and studies. & also to nurse myself. My heart refuses to beat.
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